Spa for the soul
Lately I’ve felt distressed, I thought it was because I’ve been working day and night since 2 of September. Now it has started to slow down and I have time to relax, but still I feel weird. Since September I’ve got a new apartment, new roomie (the best roomie one could wish for! I feel blessed), new family conditions, two new jobs, two sets of new colleagues, a lots of new friends and I talk to wonderful people everyday. So what’s wrong? I think I need to settle in. I’ve learnt to love changes because they are the only thing that’s constant, still I notice that they affect me. I’m not sad nor unhappy, actually I’m overwhelmed of appreciation and I’m proud of myself but still, distressed. I miss something. I miss home. I miss my sister. I miss my parents. I miss my friends, I miss my cats. I miss my car. I miss my hometown. And all this is wonderful, I’m so grateful that I have things to miss, people to come home to, a place to call home, a place that always have and always will embrace me with love. Still, I feel distressed. I need to rest. It hit me, I need someone to rest my soul in. Someone who knows me, someone who understands me, someone who loves all the things with me that I don’t like that much myself, someone who says the right things, someone where the energy flow is even, someone I can spoil with unconditional love, someone who spoils me with unconditional love, someone I can trust and who trust me. Someone who I share thousands and thousands of laughs with, someone I can sit in silence with, someone who sees me for the person I am, someone who understands that I’m a big paradox, someone who are proud of me and got my back, someone I feel safe with, someone my soul feel safe in. I strongly doubt I’m the only one. Maybe I should open a “soul spa”, no idea how it would work though. But that exactly how I feel right now, in this moment, a need for a spa day for my soul. Anyone who would join me?